I just thought I'd check in here because it's been quite awhile since I've shown my face. There's no real reason for the absence except for the fact that I haven't had anything of interest to talk about. And I've been using all my free time to work on the new novel I've been writing. I'm really excited about it, even if it goes nowhere except my own living room. I'm having a great time writing it. So much so, that I have barely even been online in several months. So I apologize that I haven't made any comments to anyone either, because I simply haven't been around to read anything. So if something really major happened to you, and I said nothing, I wasn't ignoring you. I just didn't know :s

I've been trying to skim around and check in at least once a week, but when you get that far behind, you'll never catch up...lol But I just figured I'd say hi and let everyone know I still exist out there somewhere. I hope that everyone has been well, and if there is any big news, please share it here :) Help me get back into the loop again.

Okay, that is all. I have nothing else to say really. :p

Current Mood: busy

So my b-day was Friday...it was un-eventful. Which is actually nice, because last year it was the worst day of my life. I was okay that nothing happened. Although I do miss when b-day's were actually fun events to look forward to. Now it's just another day and you happen to be a year older. 31 is suddenly sounding too old to me. I don't feel 31...I don't look it either. Thankfully. I still get carded for cigarettes all the time. And a few weeks ago some strange lady at a restaurant asked me if my 7 year old son was my brother. I told her that no, he was my son, and she said it was impossible. Told me that I looked 16. Now that was stretching it (but she was actually very insistent) to the point I finally got creeped out by her and moved across the room. But the point is, I still look young. That's something anyway...

In other news, I'm writing a new story. For what, you ask? No reason. Just because I like to write and this story is in my head begging to be written. It's very different than anything I've ever written before. There are no monsters or vampires. It's a comedy/romance. But the difference with this story is that I've written in journal style. It is the story of a couple, who manage to get together despite some funny (and not so funny) obstacles. But they both tell the story, in their journals, from their viewpoints. I dunno...I really like the idea and have never actually written anything in first person before (fiction wise). I mean, I write in first person here all the time. It's not as if I say, "Shoshanna had a good day today. She ate cake and went shopping." But to write an entire story like that is different. But I actually like it alot.

And the people in my story are 'real' people. They talk about Buffy and movies and other tv shows and compare their life to them. Because frankly, that's what people do. I read LJ and know for a fact most of you on my f-list can make a parallel in your life to something that happened on Buffy. I know I do...lol So that's who these people are. They are silly and a little dorky (like all of us) and I'm hoping that maybe someone might be interested in reading this story when it's done. It makes me happy to write it but I admit that I want other people to enjoy it too.

Current Mood: good

I wanna make a CD of sad type love songs. Songs where someone loves someone and they don't love them back. Not necessarily break-up songs, more like unrequited love. See, I'm in writing mode at the moment and I have an idea for a romance story that I really want to write. Pretty much just for myself since I've rather given up the idea of trying to be a published author. That's alot harder than I thought it would be...lol Even though it's my ultimate DREAM I'm also content to write only for myself (and whoever else I know that might wanna read it) But anyway, when I write I like to have 'theme music'. I have a pretty vast collection of music on my computer (about 2000 files) so I might even have alot of great stuff already, but weeding through 2000 songs is hard when I don't know where to look...lol Plus I'm always interested in new stuff.

So if anyone can help me out...Songs of unrequited love and the like. Title and artist, and if you're feeling really generous you can upload it for me :D But honestly, that's not necessary. Just some ideas would be awesome! Come on guys, help me!

Current Mood: needy
Current Music: Billy Joel--And So It Goes

Thanks to you guys who helped me identify that episode I was looking for earlier! :D Even though I consider myself a really huge Buffy fan, I admit I was not that enamoured of season 7 (which is why I have trouble figuring out where stuff comes from...lol) But I've decided that I'd like to give season 7 another chance. I bought the DVD's when they first came out, even though I didn't like the season, because Target had it on sale for $17! For the whole set! Yikes! I HAD to buy it. But I've yet to actually watch any of it...So today I watched First Date (since that was the one I was looking for..lol)& Storyteller, but I'd like to know what, if any, episodes of season 7 you guys liked. I suppose I could watch the whole thing, but I'm kind of just in the mood to watch the best ones. Problem is, aside from Chosen and Storyteller, I don't really remember anything about most of the episodes...(yes, I know, spank me for being a bad Buffy fan!) Recommendations are greatly appreciated! Help me out :) And as a side note, was I the only one who didn't like season 7? Just curious...

Current Mood: geeky
Current Music: Killers--Mr. Brightside

Can anyone tell me what Buffy episode this picture of Andrew comes from? I can't for the life of me remember it. I saw this on someone's icon but since I didn't know who it belonged to or anything, I just kind of cropped the picture out to show you what I was talking about. So sorry if it's your icon and I messed it up :s Anyone know the episode?

Current Mood: determined

Does anyone have any links to some good BtVS screencap sites? The place I recently found and was using won't load up for me anymore for some reason :( It looks like it got redesigned but now I don't see any pictures...Not sure if it's a temporary problem or what. But all my old links seem to be crap now, so does anyone know of any good sites? Please? Thanks to anyone who can help!!

Current Mood: disappointed

Since so many of you were morbidly curious about the mashed potato candle, I've brought you this:


Get your very own candle here!!

You know you want one...

Current Mood: silly

There is this really cool, haunting song that I discovered several years ago. It's called She Took My Soul In Istanbul by Marc Almond (he was the lead singer of the band Soft Cell) I first heard it about two weeks after the Buffy episode Fool For Love aired, and when I heard it, I immediately thought the song fit Spike's story almost perfectly. I must have listened to the song a thousand times, always envisioning Spike meeting Drusilla and becoming a vampire. I'm sure the song is not about a vampire, although I really feel the imagery fits very well, at least in my own head. After the other episode of Buffy aired that dealt with Spike's mother, this song took on more meaning, because the song mentions a mother and hearing her singing to him at night. Maybe no one else will see the Spike-ness to the song, but I'm someone who could find a Buffy/Spike connection in almost every song I ever heard...lol

Anyway, I wanted to share the song with everyone because I think it's a really cool song. Very haunting, a little creepy, but very cool.

( Here are the Lyrics & a download )

I really hope someone out there will download this and let me know what you think! I'm very curious if I'm the only one who feels this way about the song.

Current Mood: enthralled

I made a new layout for my website Serendipity I haven't changed it in forever so I thought it was past time. I only just started using Firefox a short time ago, and I realize that my website doesn't look good at all with Firefox :( The CSS doesn't work so everything is wonky. Does Firefox not support CSS? Grr...Anyway, so if you wanna see how it's really supposed to look, make sure to use Internet Explorer...lol I wanted it to look funky and hand drawn...hope you guys like it!

Also another question about Firefox if anyone out there uses it. Starting 2 days ago, I suddenly cannot access my Gmail with that browser. I've been doing it for quite some time with no problems, and now it just says that the page does not exist. But when I tried with IE, it loaded right up. Anyone else have this problem? Lots of people have recommended switching from IE to Firefox, so I finally gave it a shot, but if pages don't load right or at all, I think I'm gonna have to scrap it :( Which is too bad cause I kinda like it.

Current Mood: disappointed

I went to the mall today just to look around and I was at White Barn Candle Company. I was looking at the different items because I love candles, especially the yummy scented ones. Well, amongst the cinnamon and blueberry candles there was a candle offering you the rich scent of buttered mashed potatoes. Potatoes. A candle that smells like a potatoe. Who the hell would want that? I imagine it's not one of their top sellers, because yuck! What's next? A candle called 'Catch of the day' that smells like trout? Or perhaps 'Italian Restaurant' that smells like tomatoes and garlic? I mean certain things might smell good whilst cooking, like onions or BBQ but would you honestly want a candle that smelled like grilled steak or something? And who likes the smell of potatoes anyway? Usually when someone comes to your house for dinner and are like "Wow! Something smells good!" they aren't talking about your mashed potatoes.

Okay, I realize this was a pointless ramble, but I was laughing so hard in the store all by myself like a crazy person that I felt the need to share the idiocy with someone else.

In other news, that's not as pointless, I have a friend type dilemna... There is this chick I know and we used to be friends, then we sort of fell out of favor, then we made up, then we lost touch. Recently, I went to the store where she worked just to touch base and say Hi. She seemed thrilled to see me, and she took a break and we got coffee and chatted. She took my cell number and said she'd call me. She never did, so I stopped by again and we talked and she gave me a makeover (she's a makeup artist) and we had fun. We made plans for a girls night the next Friday. At the last minute she cancelled and said she'd call me again to reschedule. Well, that was like a month ago and I never heard from her again. So I called on Thursday and asked if she'd like to have lunch. She said she couldn't, but she'd call me. So the question is: am I being blown off? lol I seriously don't want to be the annoying girl that keeps hanging around and she's secretly wishing I'd just go away. How many times do you call someone/make plans before you just give up?

Whenever we do see each other, we seem to have alot of fun and she acts like she really likes me...lol This sound so much like I'm trying to date her! But I'm not! I really just miss having friends to hang out with and I'm trying to reconnect, but I don't want to be irritating. Any advice? Do I call again if she doesn't call me? Or do I just assume she's trying to be polite and doesn't really wanna hang out with me? I'm so socially clueless, it's sad...

Current Mood: nervous

Apparently I've become an icon making machine lately...lol Which is actually a good thing. It's fun! I'm enjoying trying new things...

Anyway, I'm glad that some of you out there are enjoying these! :) It makes me happy!

So let's get on with it then...



( The Rest Under Here )

You know the drill...comments, credit, yadda, yadda, yadda... :)


Oh, and I must credit the brushmaker for these icons because they are just so pretty! I got them from Absolute Trouble

Current Mood: devious

So I had some nice response to my icons :) Thanks guys! And it seemed that alot of you liked the Adam Busch/Warren stuff, which pleasantly surprised me! So in light of that I thought I'd share this wallpaper I made in case some of you would like that too.

Just click the thumbnail for the full size image:

Current Mood: dorky

I made more icons! I'm glad you guys liked the last ones I made :) Hopefully you'll find something you like in this batch too :)



( The rest of them under here! )

No hotlinking & credit is nice :) Hope you enjoy!

In random-ness...I went to make a frozen pizza thing for lunch, and I notice that they've put a big, bold warning on the front that says: "Cook before serving" Is this really a big problem? Are there lots of people out there serving their guests a frozen block of pizza because they didn't realize you needed to cook it first? lol That just struck me as the dumbest warning label I've ever seen...Thank god it was there because I was ready to just dig into the frozen chunk when I realized pizza might taste better UNFROZEN!

Current Mood: silly

Okay, I didn't get any new ideas from anyone, but that's okay. I'll just post what I have so far and if anyone has any suggestions, just let me know!



( Most Are Spuffy Under Here )

No hotlinking, and credit is always nice :) I hope you guys like them. It's not much, but at least I'm back in business...lol

Current Mood: flirty

I made a new layout for my journal now that I know how to play with it! Thanks to those of you who directed me to the right places to figure that out! The banner features all the guys I happen to like...I couldn't pick just one, so they are all there...lol They all have one thing in common and that's they can sing. At the moment, I'm musically obsessed so it fits my mood. Plus they can all be rather dorky at times and for some reason I really like that in a guy...lol Maybe I'm strange?

Anyway, guess what else I did today? I made some Buffy icons!! I haven't made any Buffy icons in probably a year. Wow...I missed making them! I'm not done yet, so I'm not posting at the moment, but I wanted to let you guys know that they were coming! You guys still like Buffy right? lol I've been out of the fandom loop for so long I don't even know if it's still in demand. Assuming most of you guys are still into it, what sort of icons would you like to see? I made mostly Spuffy, cause that's what I'm used to, but I can feature other characters! In fact I'd like to, I just don't know what other people/couples are popular. So tell me! :)

Okay, I have to go to the store now...fun times. I've done nothing at all today and it's already 3pm. I'll come back later and post the icons, and hopefully someone will have suggested some other people by then. If not, I guess I'll just wing it...lol

Current Mood: lazy

I have no idea if this is a bizarre question or not...but at my job we had this patient. He was 16 or 17 and he was really into hard rock type of music. He was wearing this Guns & Roses t-shirt, which prompted me to tell him that I actually had the same exact shirt only mine was from 1987...lol So we started talking about 80's metal bands (which apparently made me the coolest chick ever cause he gushed about my coolness factor to my boss!! lol) anyway, I said that I thought it was cool that kids nowadays still liked that music. He told me, "well not all of us. Just me and my friends. Everyone else is into that Emo shit." and I said, "what's Emo?" he replied, "You don't even want to know."

So, um, what IS Emo? Is this a band? lol Since I talked to him I've seen other people make reference to 'Emo' and I have no idea what it is or why he thought it was so awful he couldn't speak of it...lol Anyone know what I'm talking about, cause obviously I don't...lol

Current Mood: confused

I'm really into this band called Something Corporate. I really don't know anything about them except someone sent me one of their songs called Konstantine--because of my love of Constantine Maroulis...lol Anyway, the song is about a girl though, and I completely fell in love with it. This prompted me to try and find more songs by them to see if I liked them too. So far I like everything I've heard! I'm not sure how to describe their sound, but they do alot of acoustic songs.

I realized that it's the lyrics that draw me in. Alot of the songs are about a girl that leaves this guys life, to move onto bigger and better things, leaving him heartbroken and pining for her. I'm a sucker for good lyrics. In fact if someone can write a song that touches me, anyone could sing it and I'd be drawn in. They wouldn't have to be the greatest singer in the world if the lyrics grab me. I'm curious what draws other people into music? Do you love the actual music? The singing voice? Lyrics? What makes you wanna recommend a band/artist for someone to listen to? Is it all of the above? For me, it's lyrics first, then the music, then the voice.

( Musical Present Under Here )

Current Mood: good

I love those doll making websites...I made a cute little 'me' doll and added it to my sidebar-->
But since you probably aren't reading this directly at my journal, here it is:



Also as some of you may have realized by now, I'm addicted to American Idol (specifically Constantine & Bo) so I decided to make some Con-Bo dollz! Yes, it's pathetic, but I spent many hours in the past making Buffy related dolls, so it's really not so strange for me...lol

Even if you don't like them, check them out! They're cute!

( Idol Dollz )

Current Mood: chipper

I'm excited for tonight's American Idol! I'm really not sure who is going to win and I know for some of you, the show is starting already, but I have 3 more hours to wait! I voted for Bo a few times, but the lines were BUSY. Also, I've come down with a nasty cold, so I felt too crappy to stay up too late to keep trying. Either way, Bo wins cause he will get an album deal. I'm actually excited to see all the other contestants tonight too. I've missed Constantine! At least I'll get a bit of eye candy tonight ;)

In other news...well, there isn't any other news really. I'm sick and came home early from work :( Oh and I watched Oprah again, but there were no insane celebrities this time...lol Just that really hot decorator guy...Damn, why are all the hot guys gay?? He's very easy on the eyes...Friday Oprah has Simon Cowell and I don't wanna miss that. I love that snarky man!

Current Mood: sick

Yesterday I was watching Oprah, and Tom Cruise was on there talking about his new movie and also his romance with Katie Holmes. Did anyone else see this? I wouldn't call myself a huge 'fan' of Tom Cruise, although I do like his movies. But I was almost embarrassed for him yesterday for the insane way he was acting...lol I've heard people suggest that him and Katie are staging a romance for publicity and it's not real. I don't know why that would be true, but who knows? All I know is that he acted like an idiot. I feared for Oprah several times because Tom kept attacking her with deranged hugs and grabbing her hands. Can someone really be THAT in love that they'd act like a moron? I mean if the guy is truly THAT happy, then more power to him. But he was acting a little over the top...lol

Also, does anyone know what's wrong with Katie Holmes face? (see this picture)

I've been seeing pics like this all over and I could see where her face was all nasty yesterday and she tried to cover it with makeup. I think the reason she was hiding backstage at Oprah was because she didn't wanna show her messed up face! Poor girl...I seriously wanna know what happened to her. It looks painful and possibly contagious.

Current Mood: bored